No matter how much I sew or do, I just feel like I'm not doing enough.

No matter how much I sew or do, I just feel like I'm not doing enough.

 

Seeeew many totes to make!  

11 sent

3 made

36 totes to go....

I love this box of fabric which arrived from dairy farmer Kym in VIC.  These fabrics all cut to pretty much the size I used to make the first shipment so I just went with it rather than cutting them down a little bit.  I'm crushing on the cowgirl print and love the blues on the other two bags (with contrasting blue print inside).

I'm starting to make these a bit quicker now and have been using a few sneaky tricks to make them in half the time so I can get them sent quicker.

Every day I see the donations flooding in to Farmer Margy so I really want to get the bags sent as quickly as possible.

I'm on my second roll of cotton webbing which I use for the handles and I'll soon run out of those.  I'll be hitting the family up for donations this year ($5 each to enter through our door this Christmas!) so I can get more rolls in and also cover the cost of postage.  

I've lost count of the number of hours I've spent so far but it really doesn't matter to me.

What I'm finding quite profound is the guilt I seem to be ladening myself with.  No matter how much I sew or do, I just feel like I'm not doing enough. 

After every beautiful bag I make, I feel like I should have been able to make 2 in the same time. 

I'm not sewing fast enough.

I'm not sending enough quickly enough. 

I hope I can learn to shake off these feelings of guilt but it's hard going.  I must say, I never anticipated this being such an emotional journey!!

I have a 2-week break from my 'day job' over Xmas and I know I'll be bent over the sewing machine but I'll also try and give myself a little break.  I think in the back of my mind I feel that our farmers don't ever get a break, they don't get a choice, they work long hours and suffer relentlessly while I sit here living a pretty charmed life sewing my little heart out in the back room of our house. 

I hope after the feelings of guilt subside that I can start to find some feeling of gratitude, to myself, that at least I'm trying to help even in such a small way.

 

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Sew-long for now,

Gill

 

 

"Stay humble, stop the crumble, give thanks." - Gill